“As I release the past, the new and fresh and vital enter. I allow life to flow through me.” – Louise Hay

Sometimes we learn our lessons the first time, and other times it takes several tries. Despite surrounding myself with every spiritual and growth book Amazon can recommend, I have been banging my head against the wall trying to figure out what is going on in my life. Fire, flood, filth, drought, pests, isolation, accidents, falls, parents going through major strain, financial issues, constant construction noise, and illnesses have made our world feel like an overwhelming place to be. What was I not getting?

And then I got it.

My life is constipated.  (HA!  Bet you weren’t expecting that!)  Bear with me while I explain.

My thinking has become stuck full of outdated dogma and questions and fears and uncertainty.  My house is full of stuff that I don’t love or need anymore.  My body is full of weight and waste that is really just old gunk.  I don’t need it anymore.  To put it bluntly, I am living with a whole lot of stuck crap.  The problem comes when instead of getting rid of it – changing what needs to be changed – I continue to ask why.  I am coming at life from a constipated place, so the universe has been giving me more crap.

How did I figure it out? In the course of one day I got a note from the Universe talking about feeling good, talked to my Dad and realized he was going to be okay, read a quote in this book about finally realizing that I am a grown up and listened to a talk by Neale Donald Walsch that gave me a real a-ha moment.

The real ‘Secret’ isn’t about concentrating so hard that you get a parking place, or the shiny red bicycle, or a cup of coffee (if you’ve seen the movie you know what I mean.)  They did us a disservice making us think that it was about having stuff.   None of that matters. All any of it is about is figuring out what feels good and staying there.

It is about love, plain and simple.

I’m going to try out a little experiment.  I am going to stop trying to create wealth, success and a shiny red anything.  That’s like trying to ride a 10-speed before you have taken off the training wheels.  If I try to manifest anything, it’ll likely just get stuck in all of that crap that’s in the way anyway.  Instead I am going to try to clear the route.

From now on, this is my new criteria:  does this feel like love?

Because if it isn’t love, I don’t want it.

Yes.

Chronic attention to unwanted things holds you in a place of disallowing your physical well-being, as well as disallowing the solutions to other subjects you are focused upon.” - Abraham-Hicks

“Fear grows in darkness; if you think there’s a bogeyman around, turn on the light.” – Dorothy Thompson

I have decided to pretend that my fear looks like David Bowie in feathers and a padded codpiece: ridiculous and outdated.

I have decided that whenever he rears his ridiculous head I am going to stand and look at him with big wide eyes like Jennifer Connelly and say, “You have no power over me.” And then I am going to hear the magic music in my head that shows he has been defeated.

I have decided that although this sounds like a completely ridiculous thing for a 35- year-old to do, it is no more ridiculous than some of the fears that I have allowed to run my life and it might just make them go away.

You hear that Bowie? You have no power over me.

Cue music.

xo

1. Lisa’s good cause

2. Leonie’s new book.

3. Marianne’s 30 days of Yoga.

4. Jamie’s Soul Reflections.

5. Susannah’s Unravelling (I’ve finally taken the plunge!)

6. This book has been cracking me open in so many ways. It’s incredible.

7. My new favorite designer Sibella Court. See her interview at Design Files by clicking on the picture.

8. Two weeks of enforced home-time.  A new doctor finally told me to get off and stay off of my foot for two weeks whether it is broken or not (I fell down the stairs in January and it’s still not better.) So as I write this I am surrounded by a mountain of things that I have been wanting to play with for ages.

9. YOU.  Thank you for being here!  xo