“Change: To become different or undergo alteration”

To coin an English phrase, I went on a ‘jolly’ today. I was sent by work to a meeting that took place somewhere else. Waiting for the train, I felt like a child released from school for a school trip. I very nearly wriggled in my seat with excitement.

As I sat on the train, I started thinking about change. Starting this new site has already made me look at the world in a different way. Thinking a lot about the implications of questioning what we believe to be true, I have begun to question everything and it has been a little bit frightening. Today in the train for the first time I wondered why. Why is it so exciting to go on holiday or have a day away from normal, and so scary to change small things like what we are willing to eat, or how we are going to behave? Why was it exciting for me to go to a strange city and spend the day with a bunch of strangers, but scary for me to tell you what I am thinking or to question my fear of the dark? On paper, those things are so small, how have I made them into such mountains?

When do we choose what we are afraid of? And is it possible to choose when we are not going to be afraid anymore?

(Photograph found on wikivisual.com. I tried to take my own, but the train was moving too fast and all I got were green blurs. I decided to stop trying to take pictures and start admiring the view!)

“Our task is to say a holy yes to the real things of our life.”- Natalie Goldberg

Thank you so much to everyone who reached out after my first post. When you put something into the universe, there is always a lot of anxiety. I had all of the gremlins. You might have met them before. There was, “Who am I to write this stuff?” and “What if people don’t like it?” and the ever popular, “No one is going to read it.” But in the 24 hours since I put up the first post, I have already heard wonderful things, so thank you!

But where do I go from here? I’ve thrown down my own gauntlet, haven’t I? I can’t poke around waiting to start anymore. So I’ll start at the beginning: Who am I? The first thing on my list is: My name is Meghan. Wait! Wait! Most of the people who know me online know me as megg or Meg, and here I am springing Meghan on you. (I won’t even get started on the last name. I am currently going by two!) So maybe the question isn’t as easy as it seems.

It’s time to come clean: Megg was an accident. When I signed up to blogger, I had no idea that the username I created would also be the name that I would have ever after. At first I felt silly, but it turned out to be a wonderful accident. There were a few other megs online, and the second g made me a bit different. I began to like it, and then embrace it, and now it would feel strange not to be megg online.

But that’s not my name in ‘real’ life. So if I am going for truth here, does that make sense to be one person here and another off line? I’ll have to have a think about this one. Is it possible to go by more than one name and still be authentic in your life? Does my name matter?

I am interested in what you think. If you have a blog, have you used your real name? Have you created an alias? How did you come up with your screen name? When you meet bloggers in real life, how do you address each other? If you don’t blog, do you have different names for different parts of your life? What’s in a name? Does your name matter?

with love,

NOTE: I have been lucky enough to be featured on Jamie Ridler’s podcast this week. We discuss creative living and I talk a bit about what Creating Wings means to me. I hope that you will go over and have a listen. If you haven’t met Jamie before, have a look at her site. She is an inspiration! AND the photograph of me in this post was taken by Darlene Kreutzer.

“Then swing your window open, the one with the fresh air and good eastern light and watch for wings, edges, new beginnings…” – Monique Duval

Hello! Welcome to my brand-new site. I am so excited to have you here and for this dream to finally be a reality!

In 2006 I started my first blog. It was called ‘More to Me’ because I really felt like there was so much more to my life than I was living. It turned out to be one of the best decisions I have ever made. Blogging has made me write, it has given me a way of keeping track of where I am, and it has brought some amazing people into my life, but lately I have felt like I wanted to do something more with my blog. I wanted to explore with more of a purpose.

‘Creating Wings’ is about knowing who I am. It is about getting really conscious and being present in my life. It’s going to be filled with as much inspiration and celebration and creativity and exploration as I can cram in here. Right now it is brand new, and there are a few pages that don’t have very much on them, but I am working on it! I am really excited about all that I have planned for this site, and I hope that you will come back and see it grow!

with love,