Feather #1: Me
“You don’t need to define yourself that way anymore. It’s time to go forward, to open up to everything new that wants to come into your life.” – Carol Watanabe in The Wishing Year by Noelle Oxenhandler
When I was about 20 I met a man named Illian. I didn’t know it at the time, but he changed the way I looked at my life. Illian wasn’t his original name. He had changed it because he thought that it suited him better than his original name. Every day in the middle of the afternoon he would stop whatever he was doing and disappear to meet his muse. It had to be at the same time and it was non-negotiable. It drove us crazy at the time, but now I get it, and I thank him for his lesson in truth.
This week I have been thinking about my own name. From the sounds of things, I am lucky to only have a few. I’ve decided that I like them all. I’ve always liked my name – so much so that I am still undecided about becoming Mrs. W. despite being married for a year already. I have always felt like my name (with it’s numerological 11 life path and its ‘h’ that throws people off) was part of my destiny. It made me special and kept a place for me in the Universe.
I knew that this first feather needed to be in black and white and needed to just be simple and small, but the whole time I made it, I heard voices in my head:
“More colour!”
“Bigger!”
“Yes!”
I felt it in my jaw and in my shoulders. I feel like this project will bring me home in many ways I had not anticipated. There are enormous paintings lining up in the muscles of my arms. My fingertips are tingling. I can barely contain the creativity, and it does not want to be small and black and white.
Yes.
xo
Designed by Random
Yes! Here’s to your name, to your destiny, to your creativity and all that is building with in, beautiful Megg.
I love it! WOW!
You must go listen to Meg Hutchinson’s “Whole Bird.” Here’s a not-great you-tube link (bar background noise) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XNleVr9PsBk
Megg-
Noelle Oxenhandler is my cousin! Did I tell you about her book originally? So funny!
Ursula
Shows you how much attention I am paying, I am only just getting the concept of your “feathers!” Brilliant! What a fabulous idea and way to create and inspire and grow. I look forward to more feathers
Kxo
I’ve had an ongoing situation with my MIL, who for years refused to acknowledge my last name. She thinks that when you marry you HAVE to take your husband’s name, that it’s a moral duty to do so, because you become part of his family. She wanted me to call her Mum, but I wasn’t comfortable with that idea, even though she is a perfectly lovely lady. Anyway, I dreaded getting mail from her addressed to Mrs -, because that is not who I am, and it felt as though she was refusing to acknowledge “me”. This past birthday she sent me a card and gift addressed to “me” and it felt so good. I don’t know why this mattered so much, but it did. I was given this name when I was born, and I like it. It represents who I am to the world. If only I wasn’t so paranoid about privacy issues and could stand up and shout it out, via the internet. Don’t you ever worry that your work colleagues, neighbours, or prospective employers might google you and find out stuff about you that you’d rather they didn’t know?
YES!
so inspired by you, meg…